Long work days

I am very thankful, blessed, and appreciative that I am able to work part time and only go into the office twice a week on Tuesday's and Thursday's. It allows me to see adults, take a break from baby talk and diapers, and still get plenty of time with my sweet baby boy.

This week, however, has been extra hard on me for some reason. I am missing him so much that during the day I just need to stare at a picture of him for longer than normal, or watch a video of him (over and over again). Maybe it's because he hasn't spent a full day at home in 3 days and i'm starting to notice he's not himself. That breaks my heart. What normally makes him smile in a heartbeat no longer works. This is making me feel like a bad mom, that i'm not always there for him and I am "dumping" him off onto others. Don't get me wrong, I love that he is spending these days with family members, we are beyond blessed to live close to family who want to watch him, but I miss being there for him all the time.

I know this week is a funky week with the 4th of July holiday falling in the middle of the week, and that made Caleb's schedule all funny. He is also going through another growth spurt, so he is extra fussy. Days like these make me wish I didn't work at all. I hate that his schedule is thrown off, he's in a new environment every day, and I think it finally caught up to him this week. I think i'm taking it harder than he is, because he has been a CHAMP the whole week, even with the little fussy moments. I am just missing my little boy and our normal daily schedule at home (The Ellen Show and all).

Sorry for the sappy sap blog post. I feel like I only post the positive stuff on here, and I want to be real lol.

I have never looked forward to a Friday this bad before....come on Friday!!

Playing his new game, peek-a-boo!